There was a time when I didn’t just GO to each Camp Widow event that happened every year, I NEEDED to go to every single Camp Widow event that happened each year. Like, it was a necessity for my mental health , for my sanity, for my well-being, and for my being able to have […]
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Settling In
It was a busy week and last night I realized that I had no draft for today’s Post, a first in my year plus of Saturdays when I’d just push the Publish button. So today follows the theme of new starts, habits and outlooks in true form. I will randomly write on. On Thursday, I […]
Green Pastures
It had rained non-stop from Illinois and Indiana through Ohio and Kentucky, into parts of Tennessee, crisscrossing the Great Smokey Mountains. A challenging stretch of road for two flatlanders but we managed a steady clip. We were in North Carolina before we caught the first glimpse of blue sky and sunshine. Suddenly, on one side […]
Fleeting Sense of Safety
Ever since Erik’s passing my sense of home and safety has been fleeting. Every second of every day my mind is constantly filled with never-ending thoughts of things that need to get done, questions about the future, re-plays of the past, worry about the what-ifs, and everything in between. One of my biggest thoughts is […]
The Endless Loop
Hello Friends. Happy Sunday. Or peaceful Sunday. Or maybe just “Sunday”, if that’s all you can handle from where you are at in your healing process. I absolutely get it. So, yesterday was a rare day where I didnt have any grief counseling sessions booked, didnt have to facilitate any groups, and didn’t have to […]
Halloween Candy ( Revisited)
I am on the road this week on a new adventure with Robyn and Lola the pup. With “All Hallows’ Eve” taking place this past Tuesday, it seems to me an appropriate time to reprise this seasonal chestnut. — Gary *** Every year about this same time, television stations roll out their catalogues of scary […]
Another Halloween Without You
Today is Halloween. Yet another holiday that Erik is no longer here for. The days leading up to any holiday always puts me in a strange mood. The anxiety levels become higher than they normally are. The feelings of sadness, anger, disappointment, hope, and everything in between all seem to mix together. Something I still […]
Friends Who Know
Yesterday, we had our Soaring Spirits Regional Group meetup. We do this 2x per month, and usually one is at a restaurant, park, or coffee shop type place; and the other is at a local library where we have a private large room, access to a kitchen, and we can bring food and drink and […]
A New Manifestation
Today is the anniversary date of my husband Rich’s passing. I recently read a Post on the Soaring Spirits International Facebook page that discussed how we deal with “Our Month”, a time of year when we become hyperaware of a difficult milestone. Even if we choose to Power Through and act as if it is […]
A Late Breakfast With a Professional Driver
Lee’s brother Paul is a retired fellow who occasionally needed to get out of his house. Therefore, about a year back, he started driving part time, two or three days a week, with Lyft. Paul and Joanne still reside in the suburbs (when not staying at their Michigan lake house), but he drives mainly here […]
Weird Widow Happenings
Its Sunday, which means I write in here! And for once, I didnt forget! My widow brain seems to be a real thing as of late, even though its been over 12 years since Don died. I wonder – how long can we use “widow brain” as an excuse to just not be competent? How […]
Why the Rush?
This past week a friend of mine inquired whether I might be free to have dinner with him. I was fairly sure that I was free but reflexively responded that I first needed to check my “busy” calendar. I was not trying to be flippant. In fact, despite my de facto retirement from the practice […]