Happy Sunday, peeps! Sometimes, this life after loss thing feels so surreal to me I can barely take it. At times, it feels as if the life I am living is a life I dont even recognize as me, and I wonder would my dead husband Don recognize it, if he were randomly no longer […]

So those of you who follow me here or have read my book or have kept up with my grief and life “tsunami”, as I call it, know that my dead husband Don loved music. (you probably also know that I use terms like “grief tsunami” and “dead husband” because I hate the terms “grief […]

This weekend, New Years Eve, to be exact, was me and Nick’s first wedding anniversary. On that night, we were supposed to attend a huge NYE party at a local establishment; complete with live music, prime rib dinners, dancing, and countdown to midnight festivities. We have been to this party before, a couple years back, […]

Its the day after Christmas, and we are finally getting settled in at home after running around and doing short visits with both families (mine and my husbands.) Nick and I made up some bags of homemade goodies and treats to give out to the neighbors and family and a couple close friends. He made […]

So one year ago today, my husband Nick asked me to marry him. He did it at our favorite restaurant where we met in person and had our first date. He did it in the front area of the restaurant, by the Christmas tree and fireplace area, down on one knee, with one of their […]

Most of you reading this probably already know that Michele Neff Hernandez, the founder and Executive Director of Soaring Spirits International, was chosen by CNN as one of the Top 10 Finalists for CNN Hero of the Year. That, in itself, is unbelievably surreal and exciting. It was VERY surreal when Anderson Cooper was on […]

I met Tim O-Brien because my husband Don died, and his wife Keri died. We met at a wonderfully weird place called Camp Widow. We became friends quite fast, and also over the years, because we would spend little nuggets of time together at various Camp Widow events. Those of us who have been to […]

Last year, Nick and I were living in our rented apartment together, and we hosted our first Thanksgiving there. Due to the pandemic, it was a very small gathering. It was just us, my parents, and my brother. Since my parents had survived covid and hospital stays with covid to boot, we were all extra […]

Today is the birthday of Don Shepherd. (November 6th. This was written yesterday.) He would have turned 57. Im pretty sure. Ive lost track. Does it even matter? A decade after his sudden death, do the numbers really matter? Yes. I suppose. And also, not really. Ten years into this life-altering loss, the concept of […]

So Wednesday was my Wedding Anniversary – to the dead guy. Or as I like to call it: my “would have been 15 years anniversary” Anniversary. It was also my first wedding anniversary to the dead guy, where Im a married woman (to the very much alive guy.) There really is no way to describe […]

Like many of us who were forced upon this path of widowhood, I used to hate the word widow. Hated it with a vengeance. It made me shiver and it gave me chills. It made me feel sick to my stomach in ten billion different ways. When this tsunami of sudden death was thrust upon […]