Widow Me This – Why is it that 9 years after losing my husband Don to sudden death, one little smell or song or memory or anything can occur, and suddenly, I feel like it just happened, like he just died? How is it that 9 years later, I still cant go into or even […]
July, that is.
The death month.
The month that he died.
For another year.
We now move into August,
and my anxiety finally gets to shut down for awhile.
Thats how my brain feels right now. Like a jumbled up fog. Its messy inside there. Nothing is organized. Thoughts are not linear or neatly cataloged. Will they ever be again? I dont know. It often feels as though my brain has been hijacked. This one I have been left with isn’t as adventurous, or […]
Not sure what to say really. July 13th was the 9 year death day of my husband Don. I dont like to call it an “anniversary”, since that word feels like something that should be celebrated with cake and champagne and parties. This year felt exhausting to me, and also, maybe I was too tired […]
Hello Everyone. This may be one of the longest blog posts Ive ever written in here. If you make it to the end, congratulations, and also thank you for reading. Im hoping that by sharing some of the specifics of our story, others can know a bit more about this mystery covid virus, and maybe […]
Im very achey. All of my body aches. It feels heavy. It could be the weight of coming up on 9 years without Don Shepherd next month, or it could be the weight of life, or the fact that my normal swim routine has been taken away from me for over 2 months now due to the pandemic. I dont know. But Im achey.
When I come in here lately, I almost hate to talk about covid-19, just because its what everyone else is talking about, and what more can be said, really? But then I think about how much this covid situation is like grief, and how it IS grief, and how we are all going through the […]
This past weekend, Soaring Spirits International hosted and put on a “Telethon for Hope” – 2 back to back days, or 24 hours (with a short overnight break in between each day) on May 1st and May 2nd , of incredible and ongoing live entertainment – all from the safety and comfort of everyone’s individual […]
So, my boyfriend’s best friend, who is like a brother to him, was diagnosed with cancer this past year. He is in his mid-50’s, and was very healthy and active and all that – and then, one day, on an ordinary weekday a couple months back, we were out for breakfast with him at a […]
This pandemic crisis has left me with a lot of strange thoughts in my head. I keep thinking about how all the social distancing, flattening the curve, and sheltering in place has really forced us all to shrink our world. For me, that’s a really big change. My old world was often filled with people, […]
So its been almost 9 years since my husbands sudden death, and last month, I moved into a new apartment (our first) with my boyfriend of almost 3 years, Nick. Although this virus has certainly brought on massive challenges, we are doing okay, and I think we will be okay. That being said, moving in […]
It is 5:21 am in the morning, and I just crawled out of our comfy bed in our new apartment and came into my home office to type this weeks blog. I cant sleep. Insomnia is now a thing again, more often than it has been in the recent past. Anxiety is now a thing […]