My week at the beach was so very lovely. A beautiful gift to myself during such a special week. Two husbands. Two wedding anniversaries. Plenty of time to reminisce. To cry. To rest. To rejuvenate. And I do feel better. Much better. More positive. Ready to try to do a better job at living my […]
Widowed Signs from Loved One
A BBQ Keepsake Found
I found something of Tony’s this weekend that I had searched for extensively in the year after he died. When he first started smoking a lot of BBQ, I bought him a small leather journal. He spent so many weekends practicing; different recipes, cook times, and temperatures. Smoke, taste test, rinse and repeat. (Almost 20 […]
Ah … the ocean
“The ocean is blue poetry written in a language the soul somehow understands.” Anonymous I am so very happy I decided to schedule this important week at the ocean. And I was wise to break up my drive into two days – and grateful my car held up through that especially hot drive through the […]
Grief Hangover?🍸
Never Have I Ever… Been drunk in my life. Never, ever, ever, ever. Yep, you heard it here first, folks!!! And I’m thinking that right about now would be a great time to add that ⬆️ to my to-done list ✅. So technically, I don’t know what a hangover really feels like. But if I […]
Memories … I have a few
“Separation is an illusion. Though your loved ones are not physically with you, they are with you spiritually and energetically. They live in you and through you. They are ever with you, as close as your breath. When you are overwhelmed with missing their ‘form’, remember that their essence is woven into the fabric of […]
Green Grow the Lilacs, All Sparkling with Dew
Last week, Tim the gardener made his first appearance of the season at my property. Since Lee’s death, this has become an annual rite of Spring. Before I used Tim’s services, I depended on Lee to excavate and rescue the previous year’s growth from the harsh remnants of winter’s bramble. In her day, she would […]
Ashes to Ashes
I thought I’d have a bit more time with him … but they want his ashes shipped now. So I got those required boxes from the Post Office and I carefully wrapped up both Jim and Estelle (his first wife) according to the specific instructions. I wasn’t able to fit both of them in one […]
Static
I was trying to do some clean up on my iPhone … you know, things like deleting apps I no longer use, deleting text messages, deleting old voice mails. I was going along just fine until I hit the voicemails and realized there were like 600 of them saved. Then I realized that iPhone actually […]
“But I’m here to tell you there’s something else… The afterworld”
My fellow gen-xers will probably recognize that quote. For those who don’t, it’s from the Price song, “Let’s Go Crazy”. Prince will always make me think of Mario because he was such a huge fan. I also thought it was an appropriate quote for the past weekend for me. I took a 4 day weekend […]
Yellow Daffodils
April 1st was overcast, dreary, windy, and cold, yet there I stood in my yard, without a coat or hat, admiring about a dozen yellow garden daffodils, which seemed to have sprouted overnight. An early Spring gift from Lee. At Deer Tick Manor, I remember seeing her step inside our house, tired from laboring under […]
Six Months
Even though it’s a bit cloudy, it’s a pretty lovely day here in the desert. My roses are budding and blooming, leaves have returned to the trees, there’s a soft breeze, 83 degrees. Spring has most definitely arrived. And it’s been six months since Jim died. He created this beautiful backyard, so I always […]
Livin’ On a Prayer
I spent a good portion of this past week at my now unoccupied home in Georgia. It’s up for sale and I continue to clean out the garages. The “downside” of a third garage is that there is more opportunity to store and thus hang on to items. It’s a museum of memories, a curated […]