I am feeling a little blue the past couple of days. There is no specific cause. Indeed, I would describe the feeling as being mostly a sense impression. I know that I have felt the blues at times in my life, yet, fortunately, by nature I am a happy-go-lucky sort of guy. Thus, I always […]
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Reflections about Grief
in the deep waters of the Pacific The mystery of dark blue-black ocean water is enticing and hypnotic—it pulls me in. The ocean’s power reminds me of grief. My Love, you were with me as I spent my birthday on the rough waters of the sea with thousands of these creatures beneath, before, and […]
Reflecting on my April
Like everyone’s favorite Justin Timberlake meme, It’s Gonna Be May. Technically, it’s May 2nd but you know what I mean. And if it’s May, then that means I did it. I made it through April. Feels like there is a lot to reflect on over the last 30 days. I relived his last days and […]
The Inner Struggle
Sundays are my writing days here. Sometimes, on a Sunday, I get up and make my coffee, and sit down to write, and the words just flow. I know what I want to say, and I write it, and all is well in widow blog-land. Then there are days like today. Theres nothing I have […]
Living on the Edge
Just the other day I was telling Robyn that I could not think of a subject for my blog piece this week. I then stopped to consider what a prominent feature of my week writing this entry has become for me. It is a time-consuming endeavor. It also takes a fair amount of discipline to […]
My Love . . .
. . . as you know, today is my birthday This is seventy. I’ll be back here after my whaling day. Hoping to see signs of you, but even if I do not . . . I know you are near. I know you are always near. Will be back here to update later this […]
Grief Is
This week was the first anniversary of Tony’s death. Despite the strange time warp of grief, I have pulled us along into the second year. One hour, one day, one week, one month at a time. I imagine the road ahead is counted in years instead of the grains of time, but time will tell. […]
Boxes and Bags and Piles, Oh My!
So my parents are moving on Tuesday. For the past almost decade, I have either lived in their house with them (before getting my own apartment with Nick, and then, now, our own house), or they have been less than 10 minutes away. I could just “drop by” mom and dads, which happened often, and […]
Cousins Club
Cousin Judy called out of the blue a few days ago to inform me that she will be here later this week to visit family. She wants me to join them for dinner on Friday and possibly for Sunday luncheon, too. The family members I refer to are her close family members. I expect those […]
Easter Vibes
Happy Easter to those who celebrate – Happy Sunday to those who don’t – and Happy “Congrats! You made it through another day today, and a holiday to boot!” to those in deep grief. Im blogging at 9pm at night tonight, because its the first chance Ive had to sit and write something today. This […]
Taking Stock
The last time I visited Deer Tick Manor was this past November, just after the Thanksgiving holiday, for the annual rite of closing the place for the winter season. While Lee was alive, we would return at least once during the winter months to check on the place, a visit we typically dovetailed either with […]
Furry Children Evolution
When I met Don Shepherd in a music chat room on AOL back in 1998, he was a single man living in a tiny apartment in Largo, Florida, with his cat Isabelle. Its safe to say he loved that cat more than he loved most things, and me being a part of his life was […]