This is the fourth, 4th of July we’ve celebrated without Tony. It doesn’t feel as devastating as it did the first few years. While it doesn’t hurt like it did in the beginning, I still find myself thinking about him throughout the holiday. On the 4th, our youngest was recovering from a cold so we […]
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Pause
I almost forgot to write in here today, because life. But here I am, writing the blog at about 7:20pm eastern time. Better late than never I guess. My day was a bit wacky today, and started out a bit chaotic and rushed, which is why I forgot to write in here, since I normally […]
Hellos and Good-byes
Because summer has always been my favorite season, and I strongly dislike cold climates, the Fourth of July had always been one of my favorite holidays growing up in the North. For me, this holiday was sort of like a summertime version of New Year’s Eve with its fireworks, gatherings and celebration of all forms […]
A Tough Week
Trigger warnings: car accident, physical trauma, death, hospital scenes. Sunday afternoon a Sheriff knocked on my door. My 86 year old dad crashed his truck. He veered off the road at high speed and slammed into a culvert. He was taken to the local hospital by ambulance, but from the get go, it was clear […]
Goodbye, My Sweet
This past Tuesday marks four years to the day that Lee died. For years, Lee had successfully battled diverse types of cancer, and endured a host of other serious medical problems, with unusual grace and good humor. She was indefatigable and determined to beat pancreatic cancer nearly to the moment this terrible disease took her […]
It’s Time
Another death anniversary passed in April and here we are already in July. It’s time to honor our fifty-fith wedding anniversary coming up tomorrow. It is the privilege of a lifetime is to live, tell, and record the stories of our lives, Dan Neff. It is love on love on more love. […]
Wanderlust
Last week the twins and I returned from my first solo flight with them since Erik’s passing. I had been anticipating this flight for quite some time. All the worries that come with being a solo parent at home seemed so trivial compared to all the worries I had about traveling alone with them. How […]
Peaceful
Outside of Father’s Day a few weeks ago, I have been feeling relatively at peace. There are likely a few reasons for that feeling. The madness of the last school year is in the rearview mirror. Kid sports have winded down for a few weeks. Those two things have allowed me to take a deep […]
Waiting
Sitting here listening to some music and Tom Petty comes on. “Oh, the waiting is the hardest part…..” Yes, Tom. It sure is. Right now, Im in a constant state of waiting with pretty much everything. I have taken the steps and done all I can do with some important things, and now I just […]
Recalling Birthdays Past
This weekend marks the birthday of my sister who would haved turned 64 tomorrow. Growing up, I envied her summer birthday celebrations. I got blizzards and weather-related postponed parties and she got beaches and pool parties. We were very different, yet very close. I still can’t believe she is seven years gone. I know she […]
Extra
I remember during our rave DJ days, Mario and I got booked to play at The Alexandria Hotel in downtown Los Angeles. I had never been there before and I wasn’t aware of the place’s reputation, but I could tell just standing outside, it had a creepy vibe. Our set was at midnight and it […]
On This Day…
Given that today marks my 73rd birthday, I thought it might be fun and interesting to examine a few “On this Day…” lists to take note of the significant historical events that I had assumed would coincide with it. Unfortunately, unless one has a special interest in the esoteric, say, for example, the numerous minor […]