I spent way too much time mindlessly scrolling instagram last week. I spend more time there than any other social media platform simply because I follow a lot of just plain old fun accounts as well as art and music and people out in the world doing nice things. There is one account I follow […]
Mementos
I write about memories a lot. I think memories are important, especially when you lose the person you made the memory with. A lot of us also associate inanimate objects with memories. This is one reason why it can be so hard to get rid of inanimate objects once a loved one is no longer […]
The Art of Living in the Moment
On a daily basis, most of us have a lot to do. There’s work, there’s taking care of other humans (kids, parents, etc.), there’s all the daily personal to-do’s. And there is only a limited amount of time to do it all. For the last three months, I’ve been “grinding”, as they say. No, I […]
Reminders
This past week I got 2 pieces of junk mail addressed to Mario. It doesn’t happen as often as it did, but considering he’s been gone for 4 and half years now, you’d think I would get no mail in his name. As any widowed person knows, stuff like this is a reminder of all […]
The Depths
I read a fair amount of material on the supernatural, the paranormal, the occult, things lumped into the realm of “spiritual” as well as cultural interpretations on death and what might come after. This isn’t something that just started after I lost my person, this was something that started with my dad introducing me to […]
Tethered to Technology
The other day I left the house to run errands. I got about 5 miles down the road when I realized my cell phone was not in my pocket. For a moment, I seriously contemplated turning around and going back home to get it before I stopped and thought, what am I doing? I remember […]
“Love Letter From the Afterlife” – Andrea Gibson
This one’s going to be short this week, but it will pack a punch. Shout out to one of my clients, as it was through them that I first learned about Andrea Gibson and saw this YouTube video. Andrea was a poet and performance artist who explored gender identity, death and more through their verse. […]
Through the Good and Bad
This past Tuesday I was working when I got a message on my phone from a friend who just saw the news that Ozzy Osbourne had passed away. Earlier in the month he’d given his final show during the Black Sabbath Tribute in his home town of Birmingham, England. Total legend. I remember the first […]
Upsides, Downsides, and Omens
For the past few months, my life feels like it’s been turned upside down with having to deal with my mom’s ongoing health issues. Some of it has resurfaced some old feelings from when Mario’s health was tanking. I think that’s a natural human reaction though. If you’ve been through similar things in the past, […]
Past and Present
The summer of 2020 was a weird and unsettling time. We were early in the pandemic and there was just a heavy feeling all around. Mario’s health was really tanking, yet he was still not acknowledging it. We’d gone on a short camping trip about 50 miles to the east. I remember we had a […]
The 4th of July
4th of July was arguably Mario’s favorite holiday. It was not his favorite due to any sort of patriotic leanings. It was his favorite because it was a giant party. Years before we lived in an apartment together in Orange County, CA, we would get together with other friends and go to whatever giant rave […]
Going Through It
If you’ve been following along with me, I’m going through a situation with my mom right now (almost exactly a year after my dad passed away) where she came quite close to death. I’m realizing in hindsight that it was only because of the quick actions of the team of nurses and doctors in the […]