While the question can take many forms, the topic always revolves around moving on to a new relationship. I’ll preface this post by stating that everyone who has been widowed is unique. Some may want to move on and find someone new, some may not be ready to do that for quite some time, some […]
The Last Thanksgiving
Trigger alerts for: addiction, depression, and bitter sweet holiday memories. The last Thanksgiving that Mario and I had together was in 2020. It was the pandemic year, so we didn’t have a large group. It was just his dad, my parents, and a friend of ours. No one really knew it would be the last […]
Balance
There are times when being someone who is very empathic is tough. Over the years, I’ve learned ways to kind of shield myself and my energy if need be, but when there is so much awful in the world happening at one time, it’s difficult. I felt this way during the start of the pandemic […]
The day after.
How many times have you thought back to your “day after”? That day, after your spouse shuffled off their mortal coil and you had to face a whole new life on your own, is not one that’s easily forgotten (even with the passage of time). Every now and then, that first day will pop into […]
Ghost Travels
“Live people ignore the strange and unusual. I myself am strange and unusual.” – Lydia Deetz (Beetlejuice) From a very young age I was always fascinated with the strange and unusual (it’s really no surprise that one of my favorite movies is Beetlejuice). You bet I was watching every “In Search Of…” rerun and begging […]
“These dreams go on when I close my eyes.”
It’s been a week of oddball dreams in which my departed other half has shown up frequently. These particular types of dreams are powered by my subconscious mind, not by supernatural forces. From the surrealistic to the mundane, they take me on a well-trodden path. It’s almost as if my subconscious is experiencing its own […]
A morbid sense of humor.
This post isn’t for everyone. So trigger warning if morbid humor is not something you want to read. This post is for those who know in their heart of hearts that we all die. Memento mori and all that. Life comes to an end and sometimes the only thing you can do is smile at […]
Places in Time
Last week, I took a couple days off mid-week and traveled up to a hot springs retreat. The last time I was there was 2019 and I went with Mario. We wanted to go again early 2020, but then the pandemic hit. They managed to weather that storm and re-opened in late summer. We booked […]
Talking to the dead.
With fall definitely in the air and “spooky season” upon us, I thought it would be a good time to tell you all that I talk to dead people. No, I don’t profess to be a psychic medium (truth be told I’m more of an intuitive empath), but nevertheless, I’ll have a conversation with my […]
Portals in Time
This past week, two of my cats have found such good hiding places in my house that I honestly couldn’t find them, even though I looked everywhere. I jokingly thought to myself that there might be a secret time portal in my house that only they know about and can slip in and out of […]
Signs
Talking with others who have lost someone, a common topic that often comes up are signs from your departed loved one. I’ve been documenting signs since the day Mario died. When I speak of signs, I am talking about occurrences that go beyond the coincidental or the mundanely explainable. Also, things that have a particular, […]
A Race to the Finish Line
Mario always said he, “wasn’t in a race to the finish line”, in reference to cutting his life short. As depressed as he would get, he said he didn’t want to commit suicide. In my eyes, he absolutely was in a race to the finish line by destroying his health year after year through drinking. […]