Return to me… Please come back… Return to me, with your strong arms That wrapped round me… And made me feel safe and secure No matter what was going on around us.Return to me, with your broad shoulders Upon which I rested my head And listened to your heartbeat… Until our breathing became one breath and I felt reassured and knew, always,…
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Pieces of Her
Heartache she can feel not just in her bones but within every inch of herself. Pulsing through her like rapids over a fall. A heaviness that holds her heart with every thought of loss and of love and the thoughts can be so consuming. Love is glorious, beautiful and healing, to lose love is the painful part. Memories, she replays. Sweet, soft and…
Back to You
Im wondering, for real, because I really do want to know, will there ever be a time, when something goes wrong in my life, when a relationship ends, or someone else breaks my heart, Again, or I lose a job opportunity, or something happens with my health, or I continue to struggle financially, or my parents get sick, or my kitties die, or ANY…
This…This is Life. This is Love~
I’m going to tell you a story. It’s a Love story…my Love story….a Love story that lasted for 24 earthly years. My Love story taught me how to trust, it taught me how to love passionately while keeping my own identity, it taught me how to open myself to another person, how to ignite my passion, and how to knock down old walls that no…
Take me home, to the place I belong..
This weekend we took our traditional camping trip with my parents. My oldest son as been going since he was two. It’s a big blue grass festival, which isn’t really my thing but it’s always a blast. We go up into the mountains where there is no wifi, no tv, no ac. Just you, the ones you love and nature. It’s easy to be happy up there. To forget…
Dear Dead Husband …
Dear Dead Husband, It will be 6 years next month, since you died. So, I think that’s more than enough time to conclude the following: This widow thing? This “you being dead” thing? This “not what I signed up for” thing? Yeah. Not a fan. I’ve decided I don’t care for this. I will, of course, keep trodding along, keep finding new…
These Words of Love~
My dearest D, It’s been 4 years and one month since you left me. I know that you didn’t want to leave me. If it had been possible, you would have fought tooth and nail, with every breath in you, to stay with me. You couldn’t…the cancer that ate away at your body demanded nothing less than your life as its’ price. And on that April…
The End of Another Chapter
When Joey passed away my kids went to a small preschool near where we live. I never imagined how important this place would become to me. The day after his accident my daughters teacher showed up at my house, I was a little surprised because her and I weren’t very close. But she said she felt like she needed to be there and would just sit if that…
Stranger
Have you ever …. Stared at your dead husband’s picture, the same one that’s been sitting on your nightstand every single day for over 5 years, and suddenly, for no real reason whatsoever, you don’t seem to recognize his face as his face? Have you ever …. Gone into the closet where you keep a few of his things, still, and taken out a…
Becalmed and Adrift~
It is as if I am a ship that is becalmed in the ocean. Stillness all around me, even as I am aware of movement and chatter around me. But my world seems still. Even as it moves around me. Doldrums is the term used to describe the ocean when the winds have disappeared and ships lay still. I’ve read of sailor’s accounts of the eeriness of…
Daddy’s Girl
From the moment our daughter, Ryann was born Joey was madly in love with her. She has always been his princess and although he loved his boys, his love for her was different. The worst part of Joeys passing has always been the pain the children feel. The fact that they will have to grow up without their dad and never be able to experience life…
Echoes in my Heart
Some moments can be so complex it just floors me. Tonight Mike and I were grilling out in the back yard and taking turns playing ball with his daughter Shelby. We had good music going and a beautiful warm sunny sky. At one point I went in the kitchen to clean up some things and they followed me inside. Mike started dancing with me to a sweet song…