Our world is unforgiving of those who grieve, Those who mourn. We get a bit of time initially, of course. Mostly, anyways. Thankfully. But, too soon, we hear through words unspoken and spoken, Through actions of those we know, or don’t know… That we must be different than we are. Be this or that, Something other than what our heart and soul is…

My beloved, How thin, or thick, is the veil Between your world and mine? Is there a world for you? Or did you just disappear into nothingness? Are there alternative worlds in which You and I exist at a different time? Still together, still living our lives, Living and loving passionately, Instead of me, living here, alone, Feeling all that…

This amazing little girl came into my life quite unplanned 3 years ago… when I hadn’t even expected to find love again, much less a child. Now I’m waking up on mother’s day morning, and I am the one being celebrated. This is still so surreal to me. Of all of the hard or scary things in my life, this is one that I chose. I didn’t choose to…

Where, my Beloved, did you go,That long-ago night when you left me?Where did you go,That darkest of nights forever ago,But yesterday?Watching as your chest quivered in and out,Until it quite simply…didn’t.And my heart that was your heart that was my heart again, and yours,Shattered and splintered,Even as it crystalized into nothingness and…

In the almost 6 years since my fiance has been gone, so much life has happened. An unbelievable amount really. It’s felt like warp speed living. In part that was due to how much higher my emotions have run since he died… but it’s also in part due to having had so much change happen and having faced so many fears in such a small time in my…

  Last night we were sitting in the restaurant and there was a table of four boys sitting across the aisle from us. They were being a little too loud for comfort.   Without missing a beat, Lila turns to them and yells, “Hey! Be quiet!” I quickly tried to quiet Lila down because I didn’t want to cause a scene and young boys are prone to…

I’m on the road again. I left Arizona, headed to Arkansas, a few days ago. Or maybe it was a week ago, now. I’m kind of tired after driving some long ass days. Tune up on my car. New tires, brakes on my rig, PinkMagic, fixed. Our daughter was road tripping to Arkansas with me, to see the opera camp where I work for the summer. It’s my second…

It seems every time I listen to the news there has been another tragedy and more people have died. On Monday a rented van mounted the sidewalk and killed 10 people and injured 15 in Toronto. On purpose. This person literally had no regard for human life. There was no empathy; how scary is that? How can someone be so incredibly detached from people…

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