Nope, not for me. For others. I have now been in real estate for about 14 months. I am on my 7th transaction, 6 closings behind me, and lots of additional work with my team while training to be a buyers agent. Walking people through the process of home-buying has recently become a lot more […]
Vacation from my life
Have you ever felt like you need a vacation from your life? I like my life. Sometimes I love it. But it is a hard won life. It is stressful and hard and chaotic and complex. It is filled with grief and sadness and trauma and lots of tough things that many people never go […]
That Gentle Ease
So my parents have a time-share on Cape Cod, and its this really great condo right on the ocean in Falmouth, Mass. One side has the bay, the other side has oceanfront. You can leave the sliding glass doors open at night and hear the waves crashing gently as you sleep. Next weekend, my parents […]
The Change
Many decades ago, there was a classic episode of “All in the Family”, which was a classic sitcom, where Edith was going through menopause. Back then, menopause was referred to as “the change” or “the change of life.” Anyway, Edith’s hormones were all over the place, and she was going from happy to bursting out […]
Nothing to Say, Everything to Say
There are lots of times when I come here and I feel as if I have nothing new to say, and at the same time, I want to say everything all of the time about the loss of my husband and how it will always affect me and I will always be changed and different […]
19 years
Today is the 19 year mark of the attacks that happened on 9/11. It would feel weird for me to write on this day and not write about this, or not acknowledge this today. Obviously, that day was life-altering for everyone, and for some, more than others. If you are reading this today, and someone […]
Helpless
One of the things about having lived through and with the loss of your partner or spouse for 9 years, is that it offers you a lot of perspective. You are able to finally be in a place mentally and emotionally where you can help someone else, or many others, and it really makes you […]
Turning Around
My boyfriend Nick has a very good friend, perhaps a best friend, named Todd. Todd had a battle with cancer, and the last few months of that battle were unfortunately during covid, so he was living in a nursing home type place, no visitors allowed, no outside gifts or food allowed, all of that. Heartbreaking. […]
Widow Wednesdays
So last week I wrote in here about dreams unrealized, and how I had to give up my dreams 9 years ago, or begin the process of giving up my dreams of acting, comedy, writing, entertaining etc – when my husband dropped dead suddenly, and I ended up having to leave my NYC life behind […]
Dreams that Die
Im not sure how popular it will be to say this and admit this, but I don’t really care. Popularity is the least of my concerns at this point in my life. Honesty is more important, and maybe someone else who has been through widowhood feels similar, and will relate or not feel bad enough […]
Widow Me This
Widow Me This – Why is it that 9 years after losing my husband Don to sudden death, one little smell or song or memory or anything can occur, and suddenly, I feel like it just happened, like he just died? How is it that 9 years later, I still cant go into or even […]
It’s Over
July, that is.
The death month.
The month that he died.
It’s over.
After today.
For another year.
We now move into August,
and my anxiety finally gets to shut down for awhile.

