All week I have had a new thought that I can’t shake so I guess I’ll ask but I know I might not get a direct answer yet.
They say we are separated by a “veil” that is ever changing. I envision it’s like the whole world is covered in some strange cosmic widowed veil. Under it’s cover, we can only see what’s here and maybe that’s why those of us on this side carry our grief. We aren’t allowed to see all of you on the other side but you all can see us. For me, that is what makes the tears hit fast and hard. So Clayton can you tell me what you see when you cast your gaze this way? Does the veil change how you use to see our world?
What is it like where you are? Do you see things all the time or just when you check in? What does our world look like to you now that you see and know so much more?
Do you see our blue skies and green grass the same or is the beauty beyond the veil so bright that it outshines what we know here?
Are you standing in the kitchen and do you see me when I’m washing the dishes? Are you sitting on your side of the couch and do you see me lying alone wishing you were right there within an arm’s reach? Are you in the car with me and do you see me singing to the radio? Are you there in bed watching me dream you are still here? Do you see the look on my face when I wake, look towards where I thought you’d be only to remember all over again that I can’t see you?
When I sit and write this blog each week, are you sitting next to me watching what I type? Do you see how much I love you, how much I miss you and how bad my heart hurts some days?
I guess could ask a million questions but, honestly, I just want to know –
Clayton, do you see me?
