I have been homeless since April 27th when I moved from my house. I should feel out of sorts and unsettled; but, really, I don’t feel much different than usual. I guess over the last 4.5 years I have become used to living in a constant state of restlessness and uncertainty. Moving usually causes people to feel stressed; but, for me, the opposite has occurred. I feel calmer since I left my house. This whole process has really been a lot less anxiety provoking and emotional than I anticipated it would be.
I think my sense of peace exists because the move was the right move for me and also because I am used to feeling lost and dislocated so really being without a home does not feel foreign to me. In fact, leaving my house has made me feel lighter both emotionally and physically. I do not feel tied down the way I have felt since Mike died.
I am actively looking for a house to purchase, but even this process is not causing me anxiety. I trust that I will find a wonderful new home that suits me. I am enjoying the sense of calm and peace that has washed over me since moving from my house. This is the beginning of a new start for me and it is long overdue. I have wanted to spread my wings for such a long time; and, now, finally, the time has come for me to soar. I am so excited to begin my new life.