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A Piercing Perspective

Posted on: February 16, 2019 | Posted by: Bryan Martin

How many of us had dreamed of being super heroes when we were younger? Pulled between imagining magic powers and wishing we were older so we could do whatever we want and “oh how perfect life would be”. It’s true when they say to be careful what you wish for…

Well growing older and being an adult has turned out to be much different than what we expected with the exception of a gift. A super power if you will. One we never expected and some of us may not realize we own. We must only use this power for the greater good but that can be to lift others from the darkness as well as shock those who need to see the light. Hands down and unexpected, our gift is the experience of our loss…Saying that hurts but it is true…

You and I know it exists, our super power. Like all super heroes, it haunts us until it helps us. I’ll admit that I have used it for good and I have used it to win a battle. We have the gift of experience. Sometimes I have helped by using my superpower to show others that there is a future after loss. Sometimes I have used my superpower to strike guilt and fear into those that take life for granted. I have never liked saying things that make others uncomfortable but I feel it is part of my journey to share my “loss gift” to make the world a bit more appreciative. We can share what we have gone through by inspiring others, who have not lost, to cherish what they still keep. I wish I had a superhero back when I had Tin. I would have worked less, complained less and enjoyed my time with him much more. Don’t hide your superpower my friends because Humanity needs us…

 

Categories: Newly Widowed, Widowed, Widowed & Unmarried, Widowed Effect on Family/Friends, Widowed and Healing, LGBTQ+ Widowed

About Bryan Martin

In 2016 my life all started to fall into place. A new job as a Supervisor for animals at a small aquarium along the beautiful Florida gulf coast. It was a dream for Clayton and I to move to the beach, get settled and get married. In June of 2017 my father passed away after a long battle with opiods and alcohol. Four months later, Clayton was rushed to the hospital and diagnosed with acute liver failure. Not having been able to truly mourn my father, I was faced with knowing that Clayton (Tin as my family calls him) would also be leaving me. I had dreams of marriage, vacations and a long life together. I watched all of those dreams fade away more and more each day as I cared for him until his final days. He passed away April 16, 2018 the day after my sister’s birthday.

Now I am through the fog of the first year and reality is setting in this second time around the sun. I’m very much alone in this sleepy beach town. I’m trying to just maintain balance with my new normal. I get depressed, angry, sad, jealous, confused and disoriented. Some days are better than others and I remind myself that it is normal. So many people think my life is back to normal and fulfilling because I work with dolphins and penguins but the magic left everything when Tin passed away. I have trouble feeling passion about most things that used to light my fire. I have feelings that oppose one another and it is exhausting. I want to feel happy for others but want to know why I can’t have what they have.

Along my journey, I have had tough days and some wonderful days but at the end of each day I still don't have the answer to my one question....Why?

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