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Let’s Talk About Death Over Dinner

Posted on: February 21, 2023 | Posted by: Emma Pearson

Image by Nadia Valko on Unsplash

A couple of weeks ago I hosted a dinner where the sole focus was to talk about all things Death and Dying. (And Grief, because, heck, it’s inseparable).

I had come across the concept of this kind of dinner during the months after Mike died, and decided, “Okay – I want to do this when the time is right, when I have more energy, when I feel I can muster the focus and resilience to get through an evening without needing to hide out in my bedroom”.

But then more things came my way, rocking my world even further off balance….

Julia’s spiralling, death, aftermath, COVID, new ways of living and socialising for everyone….

Years passed.

But now, almost 6 years later, the idea relodged itself in my brain and I decided to give it a go.

I have a ready-made group of local wimmin friends on a Whatsapp group, so I started with an invitation to them. A couple were willing to give the idea a go, and it went from there. (A few others said words to the effect of, “No and hell no”, so clearly it wasn’t an invitation suitable for everyone).

Six guests joined me. We talked in French all evening (three of us are decently bilingual, three are bona fide Francophones, and one is an amazingly trilingual Italian). And we simply talked about things related to death, dying and grieving. No normal chitchat. No general catching up on people’s lives. No gossip. No moaning about the state of the world. Just right down to the business of death and dying.

How refreshing – at least to me! How I ache for Real Conversations. And not “just” with my Grieflings.

We remembered people who had died, who had touched our lives, who had left us gifts.

And honoured them by lighting a candle, talking about them.

We talked about how we wanted to be remembered.

We talked about how we would like to die, how we would like things to be, given the choice, at our own deaths.

We talked about what we wanted to have happen with our bodies afterwards.

We talked about whether or not we had written our advanced directives (some have, some haven’t).

I created a playlist of songs that my friends said they would like to have played at their funeral or ceremony – and some of us shared the meaning of the music, or the reasons behind the choices.

And my buddies came up with their own brilliant questions – such as, “What do you feel you need to get rid of, what do you not want to be found by others, after you die?” (teenage diaries!!)

I asked a question that I often reflect on, “Do we, does society, fear Grief more than we fear Death?”

 

It was a moving evening.

The effects are still landing. For me. For my buddies – for I receive notes and reflections still now.

 

These are important conversations.

Not to prepare us, necessarily, for our deaths. I don’t think we can be properly prepared.

But to talk about our wishes, to share our fears, to talk about what matters now, while we live and breathe.

To start to prepare others.

To remember that life can end at any time.

And it is while we are healthy and – presumably – some way away from death – that we should best prepare ourselves and others for some of what is inevitable.

To clearly articulate our wishes for what to do with our bodies to those who we suspect will be charged with that task.

And so much more.

I want to thank my merry band of death speakers and eaters.

I feel honoured by your trust.

I am touched by your courage.

I am strengthened by your beliefs.

I am inspired by your wishes and wisdom.

I will have more such dinners – with these lovely guests, and with others.

For there is so much to discuss.

For more information, amazing resources, book and prompts – visit: https://deathoverdinner.org/

Categories: Child Loss, Widowed, Widowed and Healing, Widowed Emotions, Widowed by Illness, Multiple Losses

About Emma Pearson

My life is a whirling mix of swishy strands, dark and glowing brightly, rough and silky smooth – all attempting to be seen, felt and integrated at once. Here are some of my themes.

I am British and now recently also French (because of Brexit), and I have lived in France for the past 21 years. I am 55 and sometimes feel to be an “older widow”, and yet I feel so young. I lost my best male friend Don to bowel cancer in September 2015, my brother Edward to glioblastoma in January 2016, my husband Mike to pancreatic cancer in April 2017, and my sweet youngest child, Julia, to grief-related suicide, in July 2019. And I met a new love (let’s call him Medjool, after my favourite kind of date), off one single meeting on a dating website. Our relationship has exploded into blossom as of June 2019.

I am widowed and I am in a new relationship. I have lost a best friend, a sweet brother, a beloved husband and a precious child, and I still have both parents who are alive and well. I live my days with my grief wrapped in love and my love wrapped in grief. I no longer even try to make sense of anything. I just hope to keep on loving and living for as long as I can, while grieving the losses of loves that are no longer breathing by my side.

I suspect my writing here will be a complex mish-mash of love and sorrow. I also write on http://www.widowingemptynests.com/.

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