Whenever people say or even assume that “time heals all wounds”, I pretty much want to roll my eyes into the next universe at them like a pre-teen girl who is angry at the world and doesn’t know why. Except, unlike that pre-teen girl, I get angry at that phrase and I DO know why. […]

So Im coming of the end of the week that was /is the 10 year death anniversary of Don Shepherd. Nick and I hosted a “Pay it Forward for Don Lasagna Dinner” at Clear Path for Veterans, where he cooked some of Don’s favorite foods for up to 50 veterans and their families. We shopped, […]

It is 2 days away from July 13th – the one decade mark of Don Shepherd’s sudden death. Its hard to describe my emotions right now, in leading up to this day. Im saddened, reflective, grateful, pained, oddly connected in a new way, overwhelmed, and filled with an entire decade of the missing of everything […]

So here we are, the 10 year death anniversary just over one week away, and still, after all these years, I am left with holes in my memory about the last few weeks of life with Don Shepherd in it. I still don’t know if that is just how trauma works. I dont know if […]

Hello all. Another crazy busy weekend for me that included a memorial service and luncheon for the loss of a dear family friend, a Red Sox/Yankees game today with my husband at Fenway Park , (my team got clobbered) and me writing up yet another offer for us on another house we have fallen in […]

I always seem to get the blues on Fathers Day. I dont know why. My own father is alive and well (well, he is 75 and is having the beginnings of some memory loss issues and physical issues but he is here and right now, he is mostly okay), and a pretty incredible dad. And […]

Lately it feels as if my life is in a constant state of waiting. Waiting until my financial situation is finally/ever/slightly better before I can afford to buy myself necessary items x,y,and z… Waiting until the real estate market calms the hell down some so that we can maybe get one of our many offers […]

I was chatting and messaging back and forth with some other widowed people in a Facebook Widowed Support Group for re-partnered and remarried widowed people this morning, and the topic came up about the term CHAPTER TWO. Some widowed people refer to their new partner after loss as their “chapter two.” Some people like this […]

Hey Everyone! So today will be my last Friday Widows Voice post. Don’t worry. I’m not going anywhere. I will still be writing here. I just cannot do Fridays anymore, due to my nutty work / multiple job schedule. Ive been fitting in my posts in between my morning and afternoon work shifts, which Im […]

My husband Don and I were only married for 4 years and 9 months when he died suddenly from cardiac arrest. We were in the talking/planning/hoping/making changes stages of possibly having a family. We talked about moving out of NJ and into NY, or maybe even moving to Massachusetts so we could be closer to […]

So, everyone in my immediate family circle has now been vaccinated. (well, except my niece and nephew, because the vaccine hasnt been approved yet for kids under 16. But soon … ) Because of this, we are starting to plan more family events and gatherings, and slowly starting to get back to something a bit […]

Those of you who have been reading here and following me for a long time might know or remember that the two absolute worst things that happened in my life, both happened while I was asleep in my bed.They both jarred me awake – one with a constant ringing phone, and the other with the […]