I wander in and out of this life I live without Chuck.

Literally, of course, as I steer my pink car, towing my pink trailer, down roads and highways and byways,

Through cities and towns and tiny villages,

Past billboards, neon road signs, intriguing landmarks and historic monuments.

Our country is wide open,

With rolling hills, massive mountain ranges that challenge the engine in my car, fear inducing 1000 foot drop offs that allow me to see the tops of equally massive trees, and flat prairies taking my eye miles and miles ahead of me.

I’ve wandered these hundreds of thousands of miles, wondering

Where I might find that one whose absence from me is so present within me.

He’s to be found everywhere, of course, and nowhere, but, surely…somewhere?

Amidst the greens, and crashing waves of the northeast coast,

The flatness of mid-country with wheat colored stalks whispering across the plains,

Among the waters and islands of the northern states?

And the jaw dropping sights along the Pacific Coast Highway…

Everywhere. There.

Here with me, yet not.

I wander in and out of this physical terrain,

And in my heart and in fading memories that are still so clear, almost as a ghost from my past.

Each mile I drive, each vista that fills my eyes,

Fills my soul as I miss him more than the previous moment.

Even as I write this Love letter to him.

Our continuing Love story, written on tarred roads and sloping hills and winding mountain passes.

How long will your Odyssey of Love continue, people ask me,

When will you settle down?

My only response is why would I ever stop? This is my Love letter. 

To my beloved husband, Chuck D,

And to the community I’ve created out there where the sun rises and falls and the moon does the same and the leaves fall and the snow sweeps and the flowers spring forth and the bees dart back and forth on lazy summer days…

Our Love story.

My Love letter.

Endless. Never ending.

As long as I have breath to breathe.

My Odyssey of Love is my continuing Love letter to the world.

My link to Chuck.

My link to the world.

My saving grace~