Do not be fooled
by the lightness you see in me –
The cool easy smile
across my face.
I would like to kill this silence to death.
This silence in me
where once stood the man of my soul.
A silence louder than all the rest.
Do not be fooled
for a moment –
For where you see
my eyes shine with being
You see a moment in time
that I am fighting for.
A silence
I have agonized to accept in me
A painful release
I have fought to give myself.
No longer does joy exist
without the battle.