Found this picture while looking for images that expressed how some of my days have been recently. This one made me laugh out loud! I’m glad to report that it isn’t as bad as all that…but there are moments when I feel like the shark is about that close. 

I think I sometimes lean heavily on the idea that “this isn’t hard, I’ve experienced hard, and compared to that….this isn’t hard at all”. It’s true. Compared to the loss of your spouse and all your dreams of the future – most of life’s pressures are minuscule in comparison. It doesn’t mean they don’t suck though. I have to remind myself that it is okay to let little things bug me sometimes. I’m human. Widowhood has made me stronger, but I’m not freakin wonder woman all the time. I have a tendency to put on a happy face even when I’m not feeling it, and lately I’ve been needing that fake face a bit more often. I’m not a great actress, and I’m sure my coworkers are beginning to sense the strain. 

I’ve been less patient with them, less patient with G, less patient all the way around. I’ve written more than a few nasty emails that I’ve deleted before I hit send…thank goodness I’m not too rash or I’d be seeking unemployment benefits at this point I’m sure. I actually told a co-worker in an “off the record” conversation that I thought another co-worker needed to put his big girl panties on and stop acting like such an spoiled brat. Although I really meant it when I said it, the visual of this guy in his big girl panties was so powerful that I was in a much better mood the rest of the day! 😉 Whatever it takes!

Fortunately for me (and the people in my life), bad days and bad moods such as those are few and far between. I tend to bounce back quickly, I hate being grumpy…it makes me grumpy! So I remind myself of the things I’m grateful for, and let the thoughts of those things buoy me through the rough patches. While lately I’m feeling more like the bug than the windsheild, this too shall pass….