I love this song and the message it holds. As long as I’m clear on what the word “fix” means to me in this concept. If “fixing” means that I am broken and someone has the magical fairy dust that will make me “happy” and make me “forget”, than I don’t like this song a bit. On the other hand if “fixing” means you will love me, accept me for who I am and where I have been, than this is a great song.
I’ve always hated the concept of needing to be “fixed” after losing Daniel. I’ve found that lots of people want to “fix” me, help me “forget” (now that is hilarious), get me “better”. I don’t need fixing in that sense, but I’m learning that I do need acceptance. I am who I am, scars and all. No amount of future happiness will change where I’ve been nor would I want it to. My future will only be possible because of my past. I won’t “get over it” if that means forgetting. What I will do, is move forward with the knowledge of where I’ve been and a focus on where I want to go next.
When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I …
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I ..
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
(Coldplay – Fix You)