… but then, neither did you, right?

It’s been one of those weeks … and it’s not even half way over yet!

I am totally sick of being a single parent. I’m tired of having to do all of this on my own when I really don’t know what the hell I’m doing a lot of the time. 

Teenage boys?? That was supposed to be Jim’s job. I handled the girls and their problems and we made it through their teenage years (granted, they were pretty easy teenagers) but this is a whole different experience. Jim was supposed to be here for the times when I feel out of control, when I don’t know what the answer is to make my son want to study and pass a class, when I feel like screaming …. or when I am the one being screamed at. It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

And I hate it.
I hate doing this alone. 

Sometimes ….. and I’m going to be totally honest here – because I know I can ….. sometimes, I feel like Jim took the easy way out.

Does that make me horrible? I don’t think so.

I think it makes me human.
A human being who, like you, did not sign up for this life.
But a human being who will keep putting one foot in front of the other and will keep looking for the good in a day.
Even on the days I hate.