I lost a friendship I once valued,

Who knows where the drift began.

But you can’t make amends with silence,

Although it’s not quiet like the dead.

This silence breeds indifference,

I refuse to accept the shrinking effects.

I’ve already survived his death,

This too, I will endure.

I imagine they are hurting too,

Missing him and the ghost of who I used to be.

I wish I could reach him and me both,

Drag us back to the before.

Instead, I’m left to endure life,

A life without him, a lift without you.

Craving those who see the good,

And always give intentions the benefit of the doubt.

 

Since the fall/winter, I’ve been navigating a friendship that is crumbling before my eyes. Given recent events, I think it’s gone for good. I don’t know how to write about it in the blog without it becoming a she said/she said novella. So, I attempted a poem.

Most of us have experienced losing a friendship post loss. I just never expected it 4 years out. If you have lost someone you considered a best friend, I want you to know you aren’t alone.