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Paying Grief Forward

Posted on: July 26, 2019 | Posted by: Kelley Lynn

It has been eight years since my husband’s sudden death. 

In the beginning, there were days where I honestly didnt see myself ever living a life with meaning again. 

I didnt think I could feel joy again. 

I didnt know if it would be possible to take the pain and turn it into something that might help others.

I didnt have the energy or the foresight to know how vital that might be. 

How doing so would help me to survive. 

Slowly, 

and with many mis-steps,

I began to find my way. 

It would be years,

and years,

about 5 years actually,

before I started to feel more grounded,

and less shaky. 

It would be years,

before I found my new personality,

and collected the pieces of my old one,

that I wanted to keep,

and created this new version of myself. 

 

I am passionate about writing words in this blog

about grief and loss and pain, 

about survival and resilience and strength,

about friendships and bonds created through death. 

I am fiercefully determined about speaking 

and educating others

about changing the conversations surrounding grief and loss

and death. 

 

I am incredibly happy 

when someone reads my words,

in my book or this blog, 

or sees my TED talk,

or watches me speak of loss in a comedic way at my Camp Widow presentations, 

and something inside of them 

begins the long process of healing,

or believing 

that they too,

will one day have a life with meaning

Again. 

 

This has become my greatest joy. 

Taking the pain,

and paying grief forward,

to ensure those who sit in the darkness,

will someday feel the light. 

 

I believe that for most of us,

we begin to heal,

when we can see outside of our own pain,

and be a participant

in the healing of 

someone else. 

 

When a widowed friend of mine,

who I have seen struggle,

who I have sat on the phone with 

for hours,

sobbing and feeling hopeless and awful, 

is now living a life they love,

because they built it,

nothing makes me happier. 

Hearing that a widowed friend went back to college,

to get her degree,

or another found new love,

after being convinced that he never would,

or another having a baby,

when she never got to have kids with her husband,

because he died. 

Or even,

something as simple,

as witnessing that moment,

in a widowed person’s life,

where they go from simply existing,

to really, actively living, and participating lin life 

Again. 

That is a moment,

that is worth everything. 

 

When they are able to again

see natures beauty,

or hear incredible music, 

and experience lifes wonders,

in a profound new way. 

To watch them

take the pain of death,

and slowly

turn it into more 

Life,

carrying their person 

with them,

every step along the way,

a connection never broken. 

 

When someone you love dies,

it changes you 

forever.

I have always believed,

though,

that eventually, 

it is up to you

HOW 

death changes you. 

What will you do with your pain? 

What will you make of your loss? 

What will people say,

when they tell your story? 

 

I hope that when they tell mine,

they say,

that I lived through great pain,

because I lived with great Love,

and that I took all the horrors 

of death,

and 

turned them 

back into 

Life. 

 

I allowed death to change me,

and I will never

be the same. 

 

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About Kelley Lynn

Kelley Lynn is a comedian, actor, TED talk speaker, and author of "My Husband Is Not a Rainbow: the brutally awful, hilarious truth about life, love, grief, and loss." Kelley was widowed at age 39 when her beautiful husband Don left for work one morning and never came home. (sudden heart attack.) Since then, it has been her mission to change the conversations we have surrounding grief and death, and to help those who are sitting in the dark, to find some light again. Kelley is a proud kitty mom to Sammy and Autumn, the 2 rescues that she and Don adopted together. In 2017, Kelley met her next great love story, Nick. They married on New Year's Eve 2020 in a FB LIVE ceremony, and are loving their new home in Westminster, MA.

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