i’ve been here,
in this place.
but when?
was it twenty five years ago?
maybe eight?
yesterday?
no.
it was
thirteen years ago.
and it was
almost four years ago.
i was here.
she was here
we.
we were here.
but it was different.
thirteen years ago
it was an
awkward meal with
people who didn’t
know me.
but she made
it comfortable,
even fun.
…
some of them
were here.
i was here.
she was here.
we.
we were here.
and that day four
years ago,
we stood up
there.
it was that day,
that day i
put the one
now on my
left hand
on hers.
and the one
now on my right
was on my left.
it was to
be like that forever.
that was the plan.
i can smell
the flowers.
i can feel the excitement
of that moment.
i can see the dress.
and the woman
inside of it.
but four years
later, i am here
some of them
are here,
but she,
she
is not here.
…