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Return to Deer Tick Manor

Posted on: June 18, 2026 | Posted by: Gary Ravitz

For no real reason, last night I made a virtual, stealthy visit back to Deer Tick Manor.  As best I could discern, the place is not currently on the market, which I was happy to see.

According to both Zillow and Realtor.com, Deer Tick has appreciated in value substantially since 2022, when I sold it “as is” to a young couple.  One must take such valuations with a very large grain of salt, quite naturally, but even if the current estimates being displayed on the inter-Google are overly generous and optimistic, my young purchasers got good value and a better place to call home.

In the bargain, I made a little money, too. A win-win proposition for all.

Not surprisingly, undertaking my unannounced investigation made me feel nostalgic for our former getaway place. The realtors’ posted photos show that the current owners had essentially maintained the status quo. Furthermore, assuming these photos are up to date, the current owners appeared to be making good use of the furnishings and other items I left behind when I sold them the property.

Even better, the grounds looked just as welcoming as Lee had made them through her hard work and effort over nearly two decades tending to Deer Tick Manor. I smile.

Indeed, based on my memories of the property, June was always one of the best months to visit Deer Tick. To my eye, the photographs of “Totie Fields,” the pet name we gave to the large walled garden Lee designed, installed, and lovingly nurtured, showed it appearing well-maintained and in full bloom. I observed that the ornamental shade trees we planted over time in front of the house, near the road, were full and healthy.  Further, they were markedly taller than when I last saw them.  It warmed my heart to see that the current owners had wisely left Lee’s garden handiwork largely intact and undisturbed.

Even stronger than any sense of nostalgia for the place, certain memories, snippets, really, of the years at Deer Tick, flashed through my mind.  No mere memories either; once again, I can almost feel the cool, gentle breeze stirring the leaves, causing them to rustle softly, and I glimpse birds of all colors and sizes, living hidden in the trees, as they flit and dart from tree to tree. My ears fill up with their varied calls and bird songs. And the smell of freshly mowed grass, sparkling with dew in the morning sun, fills my nostrils. Once more, I am trying in vain to count the innumerable fireflies that rise from the grasses, plants, and trees at dusk. Eventually, they comprise thousands of tiny strobe lights flashing in the darkness to the very treetops, desperately seeking out their mates.

The sight is overwhelming. I feel giddy having the privilege to witness the spectacle of Nature’s light show, suddenly unfolding before my eyes, under a canopy of stars on a moonless night.

Of course, underneath the memories and sense impressions, she is there.

Categories: Widowed Memories

About Gary Ravitz

In relevant part, my musings are for me. It’s one of the ways in which I process losing my sweetest. Of course, Lee didn’t want to die. She had fought like hell, but the relentless cancers kept coming: Skin cancers; breast cancer; head and neck cancer; colon cancer; and finally, the deadly pancreatic cancer. In June 2020, and only after being pressed hard by Lee, her oncologist opined that my wife had from two weeks to two months left to live, turned on her heels and nearly sprinted from the hospital room, never again to be seen or heard from by us. I promptly removed Lee from the hospital and brought her home. It was the right thing to do and I only wish I had acted sooner over “the best” medical advice to the contrary. In fact, my sweet wife only had nine days left to live. At the final, she embraced her own death with great courage and unfailing kindness. It was a truly remarkable display of grace and wondrous to behold. It was my great privilege and honor to be with her every step of the way. And now, it’s my privilege to be able to write a few words to you each week. In a nutshell, I believe every journey is unique, but, hopefully, to know that you do not have to walk it alone can also be reassuring. And, along the way, you might hear a bit more information about me.
Gary

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