Widow's Voice

Lost and Found

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woman holding compass toward mountain.
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Do you ever feel lost, but you can’t define it?

This is me, of late.

Without words to inform my senses.

 

Something in me wants to define my feeling of being lost.

This makes me ask,

what is it about the known

that is less disconcerting than the unknown?

Is that actually true?

 

What is lost—me or the answer?

 

definition of lost

 

From this definition, I choose the word “disoriented” to best describe my state of being (though meaning two is always the truth that lies beneath the surface).

My beloved has been taken away.

definition of the word found.

What of found? Of this definition, I prefer the less obvious option… 2. (of a ship) equipped, supplied.

In the ocean of my life I want to be well found and sea worthy.

Logo that says The L&F for lost and found.
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Truth be known, there are no simple answers to getting a read on my life.

Have courage, dear heart.

All in good time.

About Kathie Neff

Kathie Neff was widowed on April 15, 2021. She and her beloved husband, Dan, were high school sweethearts and enjoyed dancing and riding horses together. They lived in gratitude, hope and forgiveness for 50 years and nine months when Dan passed quietly late at night, surrounded by their seven children who, with Kathie, were caring for him in their family home.

Dan and Kathie have been a part of Camp Widow and Soaring Spirits International since its inception, as members of Michele Neff Hernandez’s cadre of helpers from the Neff family.

Kathie believes strongly in the strength and bond that is the gift of community and brings a heart of love for all who have been affected by death and dying.

Long live love. XO