There are times in this widowed life where I just want to scream at the universe or God or whatever randomness helps things to happen to people … ITS NOT FAIR!!!
Its not fair that a widowed acquaintance of mine who lost his wife to cancer just 3 years ago, is finally starting to get back on his feet, only to receive a diagnosis for himself of stage 4 lung cancer.
Its not fair that another widowed friend collapsed from cardiac arrest and died, leaving my other dear widowed friend a widow, again. Its not fair that they both found love in each other after losing their person, only for him to lose his life so young and for her to have to go through this shit AGAIN.
Its not fair that yet another widowed friend of mine who has been having a really rough time, just found out two days ago that her dad died. She was already feeling fairly lost, overwhelmed, and hopeless, and now this.
Yesterday at our SSI Regional meetup, we found out that one of our members isnt doing well health-wise, and we dont know what will happen. Cant say more here for her privacy reasons, but this shit sucks.
There are things going on currently in my own life that are completely unfair as well, and that I still cant discuss here in such a public forum, but its a LOT and Im going a little bit insane inside my head and heart, and Id just like to say on behalf of all widowed people and all people who seem to get the “bad things happening over and over again and I cant catch a break” end of the life stick – ITS NOT F***KING FAIR!!!!
Why is it that some people seem to get all of the hurt and pain and tragic things, while others seem to skate through life without much to deal with? And yes, I know sometimes it can seem that people arent dealing with things when there is more going on behind the scenes, but it does seem to be true that some people just have one painful thing after another happen in their lives, and they just cant seem to catch a break, and its really incredibly unfair.
Im out of intelligent things to say, no big message here, no catchphrases of hope to leave you with today.
Sometimes life is just completely and utterly unfair.
That is all.